I dont know what stage of loss I was in but it was more fun this morning's switch. I guess you can go through more than one at a time. Maybe it is how much time he has been coming here together with how much he pushes away. sigh. made a tearful journal which I hadn't done for months this morning. I guess it seemed like there was a tinch off acceptance there. Didn't ask for prayers as much since I had no idea what to pray for. I still desire reconcilliation but this time with a man who has repented and changed. So I wish for someone better in my life since I desperately don't want to be alone. I hear that is moving to fast but really I want more than a look from an old guy when I am out and about, but a look that means something. Still tortured by this hurt giving me if I let myself face it too much. There are some areas she is just not welcome in if I can do anything about it. (she as in the signifianct other rui uining my life)Fill me full of suppport, take the tears away and replace them hope and contentment. I don't understand the gargeny part here so help e have some so more of acceptance and looking forward con come forward. Not sure my anger againgst the significant other will ever completely go, but disapointment on the lack of Christian faith and leadership in my husbsand higher than my anger. oh--thank you for the cyber hugs I really need them right now.
Hold fast to God & His Church. We all love you.
MY SWEET KITTY KAT...I HAVE KEPT YOUR HEART, MIND, AND STRENGTH LIFTED INTO JESUS HANDS WITHOUT CEASE. JUST AS THE MOVIE WE WATCHED LAST NIGHT, AMAZING LOVE, THE STORY OF HOSEA, YOU TOO, AS MANY OTHERS, ARE WALKING THROUGH THE SAME, THERE IS NO LOGICAL REASON FOR IT, BUT JUST AS HOSEA, YOU CLING TO JESUS. YOUR HOPE, YOUR PEACE, YOUR COMFORT, AND YOUR JOY. JESUS WITHIN YOU, AND WITH YOU, AND FOR YOU, IS FAR STRONGER, BETTER, THAN ANYTHING THIS WORLD CAN OFFER YOU. JESUS WILL SEE YOU THROUGH. I LOVE YOU!
KNOW THIS MADAM FIESTY THE CSN PRAYER WARRIORS STORMED HEAVEN FOR YOUR PRAYERS TONIGHT. OUR JESUS HEARS AND OUR JESUS ANSWERS!