Hello brethren of CS.N...

I'm just looking for fellowship. I'm starving for it actually. Every Sunday, my family gathers in our home for worship, but no one else attends our small house church. Every day, I read the word, but have no one to share it with. The Lord teaches me what feels like a new lesson each week (they seem to be weekly lessons), but it's only shared with my family on Sundays in our church service when I preach.

I'm our church's pastor, but I'm not worthy to be, as over the years, I've made a mess of my life in Christian life (you could call me a prodigal son with a lot of scars) and have made a lot of bad choices. I want to share the Gospel with more people around me but need accountability and a little spurring on. There are no churches around that offer what I would consider safe / conservative teachings. The Lord provides for us through my online work, so I'm bi-vocational; meaning, I'm pretty tired every day. It feels like we're on an island here and I'm just kinda floating along.

Anyway, I'm starting this thread to find like-minded brethren who might want to fellowship. I'm not looking for sermons, or simply Bible verses, but New Testament fellowship in Christ: encouraging one another as the day approaches. If you'd like to engage in asynchronous and sometimes relatively slow interaction, I'd welcome it. I know there are sincere brethren on this site. So, I believe the Lord keeps bringing me back here.

I could care less about other social networks and am off the mainstream ones. I wrestle with my thoughts at times. I'm sick and tired of the treachery being perpetuated upon us by the evil in high places and for the love of money. I want to fight back, but I can't get back to the U.S. I'm willing to fellowship about quite a few things but no tirades ... just speaking in love one to another, sharing the word of God in relation to what's going on in the world.

I'm conservative, believe in 6-day creation, that Christ is my only hope for forgiveness, salvation from the wrath of God, and eternal life; use the King James Bible (but am not a KJV-onlyist) and am non-denominational with an independent Baptist bent. Whatever you want to fellowship about I may have experienced something relative to it. There's just so much to talk about as we walk through this life. 

So, what is the Lord showing you in your Bible reading?

What is the Lord teaching you these days?

What do you think of modern events as they relate to the Scriptures?

How are you doing in your walk with the Lord?

What burdens are are you bearing?

JERRY...SATAN AND THE WORLD WANT YOU TO FOCUS ON YOUR MISTAKES. YOUR FAILINGS. BUT JESUS PAID ALL OF YOUR PRICES. JESUS ERASED ALL OF YOUR FAILINGS, SINS, SHORT-COMINGS, WRONG TURNS IN HEAVEN. THEY NO LONGER EXIST IN HEAVEN. THEY ARE NO LONGER REMEMBERED IN HEAVEN. THE ONLY ONES WHO KNOW AND REMEMBER ARE LOST MANKIND AND SATAN. THEY ALONE SEEK TO BE YOUR NIGHT TERRORS, YOUR NIGHTMARES, YOUR REMINDERS OF WHO YOU ONCE WERE.

REMEMBER TOO, YOU ARE IN GOOD COMPANY WITH ABRAHAM, MOSES, ELIJAH, KING DAVID, THE DISCIPLES, APOSTLE PAUL.  WHEN WE STUDY JESUS WORD HE SHOWS US OLD TESTAMENT AND NEW THAT THOSE HE LOVES AND CHOSE WERE ALL TERRIBLY FLAWED. THEY FAILED OFTEN. THEY SINNED GREATLY, BUT THE GREAT I AM CHOSE THEM KNOWING THIS AND TURNED THEM INTO HIS WARRIORS, HIS PREACHERS, TEACHERS, PROPHETS, AND LEADERS. SO QUIT FOCUSING ON YOUR PAST FAILINGS AND FLAWS AND THANK THE LORD JESUS FOR WHAT HE HAS DONE TO CHANGE YOU IN HIM.

ALL THE ABOVE MEN WERE TORMENTED AND REMINDED OF THEIR FAILINGS, FLAWS, AND SINS.  BUT ALL WENT TO THE LORD JESUS IN PRAYER AND JESUS STRENGTHENED THEM, FORGIVE THEM AND YOU NOTICE HE NEVER REMINDED THEM OF THEIR PASTS.  SO STOP ALLOWING SATAN TO THROW YOU BACK AND BRING UP YOUR PAST. IT IS FORGIVEN AND FORGOTTEN.  STAND TALL. SHINE AND SHARE AND SHOW OUR JESUS. BECAUSE WHAT JESUS THINKS OF US IS ALL THAT REALLY MATTERS.

AS FOR THE WORLD AT LARGE, SO MUCH TRUE EVIL IS BEING EXPOSED. EVIL THAT HAS BEEN IN OUR MIDST FOR DECADES THAT MEDIA, CONGRESS, AGENCIES, ORGS., GOVTS. RELIGIOUS SYSTEMS HAVE LIED AND HIDDEN FROM US.

JESUS CHRIST IS SICK OF IT.

JESUS HAS STARTED THE GREAT AWAKENING.

JESUS IS EXPOSING ALL OF IT.

IT IS HEART BREAKING TO REALIZE PEOPLE IN ALL THE ABOVE THAT WE VOTED FOR, WE TRUSTED, WE LISTENED TO, & OBEYED HAVE COMMITTED MONSTROUS EVILS IN THE BACK ROOMS & IN THE SHADOWS. BUT JESUS KNEW. HE SAW THOSE WHO SAY THEY ARE GODLY MEN AND WOMEN WHO DO NOT REALLY KNOW THE LORD JESUS AT ALL. 

JESUS IS BRINGING AND DRAGGING OUT ALL OF THE EVIL INTO HIS LIGHT.

THE BLESSING IS THAT MANY NO LONGER TRUST THE MEDIA, SOCIAL MEDIA, LEADERSHIP AND WE NOW SEE, WE KNOW,, WE UNDERSTAND, AND WE CALL OUT THE EVIL. FAR WORSE IS THE RELIGIOUS LEADERS WORLDWIDE WHO DEFEND AND SUPPORT SUCH EVIL OF ABORTION, ADRENOCHROME, BODY HARVESTING, TRAFFICKING, CORRUPTION, & SHUTTING DOWN GODLY LEADERS/CHURCHES WHO STAND ON JESUS WORD AND THE RIGHTS HE GAVE US, INSTEAD OF BOWING TO THE EVIL IN OUR MIDST.

THE MEDIA/THE EVIL IN THIS WORLD WANT US TO BELIEVE WE ARE ALONE. BUT WE ARE NOT. THERE ARE FAR MORE WHO KNOW AND LOVE OUR JESUS AND HIS WORD WHO ARE WAKING UP, STANDING UP, UNITING AND CALLING OUT THE EVIL WITHOUT FEAR OF WHAT EVIL SAYS OR DOES OR THREATENS.

WE WHO LOVE JESUS AND HIS WORD KNOW THAT HIS WORD AND PRAISE ARE FOOD FOR OUR SOUL. FELLOWSHIP STRENGTHENS IT AS WELL.

THAT IS THAT MAIN REASON CSN OFFERS A WEEKLY CHRISTIAN MOVIE NIGHT ON TUESDAY, A PRAYER MEETING ON WEDNESDAY, EXPOSITORY BIBLE STUDY ON THURSDAY, AND A MARATHON PRAISE AND WORSHIP FELLOWSHIP ON SATURDAY EVENINGS.

WE ARE FED, ENCOURAGED, AND BECOME MORE UNITED AS JESUS FAMILY AND HIS LIGHTS WHEN WE TAKE THE TIME TO GET AWAY FROM THE WORLD AND GATHER TOGETHER.

IT IS ALSO WHY CSN IS NOT MONETIZED, NOR DO WE ALLOW GOOGLE ANALYTICS, NOR WORLDLY ADVERTIZING HERE EITHER.  THIS IS JESUS SITE. WE TRUST THAT JESUS IS OUR SOURCE. JESUS IS OUR STRENGTH. JESUS WILL SUSTAIN US. AND HE HAS. 

BUT EVEN AS THE LORD JESUS IS CLEANING OUT THE GLOBAL EVIL IN SOCIAL & POLITICIAL & JUDICIAL EVILS.  JESUS IS ALSO EXPOSING THE EVIL IN RELIGIOUS SYSTEMS.

SO CSN AS A SMALL JESUS GLOBAL FAMILY WE ARE ALL FIGHTING AGAINST AND PRAYING OVER OUR SUFFERING AND FIGHTING AGAINST ILLNESS, LONELINESS, PERSECUTION, BUT WE KNOW WHOM WE BELONG TO.

WE KNOW WHERE WE ARE GOING. WE KNOW THAT JESUS CHRIST IS AND HAS LED AND GONE BEFORE US. SO WHAT DO WE HAVE TO FEAR?

FEAR, WORRY, DEPRESSION, ANGER, DOUBT ARE ALL POWERFUL WEAPONS OF SATAN.  SATAN FEEDS OFF OF THESE NEGATIVE EMOTIONS.

SO WE HAVE CHOSEN TO STAND UNITED, TO PRAY AND PRAISE AND SEEK OUT AND LIFT UP GIVE THANKS FOR THE JOYS, THE LOVE, THE FELLOWSHIP, THE PRAISE, AND YES, WE FIND THE LAUGHTER AND FUN TO BE HAD IN EACH DAY, BECAUSE WE KNOW THOSE GIFTS FROM JESUS ARE OUR POWERFUL WEAPONS AGAINST SATAN AND THEY ARE LIKE ACID TO HIM. THEY STARVE HIM AND WOUND HIM TERRIBLY.

SO REMEMBER EACH THANK YOU JESUS.  EACH PRAYER. EACH BIBLE STUDY. EACH FELLOWSHIP. EACH SHOW OF COMPASSION, CARE, LOVE, AND KINDNESS OFFERED WHETHER THERE ARE THREE OR THREE HUNDRED, ALL ARE DESTROYERS OF SATAN.  

SO LET NOT YOUR HEART BE TROUBLED. KEEP PRAYING, KEEP WATCHING, AS WE SEE THE POWER, MIGHT, AND GLORY OF THE GREAT I AM WORK JERRY!

THE LORD GOD ALMIGHTY WINS! 

Faith, thank you so much for taking the time to reply in depth to my request for fellowship. I appreciate your encouraging words regarding my failures not being remembered. Believe me, there are many, and yes, at times, they do come to mind. I struggle also with my thoughts. But, all I can do is plead Christ, remember my sins are forgiven, and move forward. But since we reap what we sow, I still live with the reaping part. I've no doubt, my life is nowhere near what it would have been had I not been so foolish.

Something I heard while watching a Christian movie yesterday about God's love for us (as exampled by Hosea and Gomer), is that He loves us in spite of ourselves. I still mull that one over. It's not dependent on me.

Yes, you are accurate here: so much evil is being exposed. From top (supreme court, VP, ...) to bottom (mayors, media, leaders, ...) the U.S. has been corrupted by evil. I can't help but think the church let this happen with watered down teachings, entertainment, music, and seeking to remove God from our culture. It reminds me of Psalm 2:1-3. Go figure. This nation was founded on God's authority. Now, we have to fight once again for freedom and righteousness. It's no longer a given in our nation.

It's physically sickening the blatant lies and treachery upon us these days. The world has been ensnared. And even worse, as God wrote through Jeremiah 5:31 about lying prophets and harsh rule of the priests, the people love to have it so. I agree, this seems to have embolded more Christians to speak up and call these things out. Praise God for them.

I often pray the Lord would raise up judges all over the world to resist this and lead people against it. I don't want to tell God how to run the universe, but I can also pray specifically if it be His will. And from what I see, more people are saying, "no." No matter what these evil people try to do, they will never topple God off His throne. One day, every knee shall bow. One day, God will bring down the haughtiness of mankind. These people who 'think' they're calling the shots will one day know who God is. Awesome God.

I'm just not able to attend the functions CS.N offers as they conflict with my daily work schedule.

JERRY, WHEN JESUS DIED ON THE CROSS FOR YOUR SINS AND MY SINS, HOW MANY OF OUR SINS WERE FUTURE?

JESUS KNEW US BEFORE WE WERE IN OUR MOTHER'S WOMB.

JESUS KNEW WE WERE SINFUL FLAWED AND WOULD FALTER, FAIL, CHOSE WRONGLY BEFOREEEEEEEEEEEE WE WERE EVER BORN.

SO HOW MANY OF YOUR SINS, FAILINGS, SLIPS, BAD DECISIONS WERE PAID FOR BEFOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEE YOU WERE BORN?

THE ANSWER IS ALL OF THEM. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM.

THE PRICE WAS ALREADY PAID.

JESUS JUST WAITED FOR THE DAY YOU WOULD COME TO THE REALIZATION, HIT YOUR KNEES, CONFESS, INVITE THE LORD JESUS INTO YOUR HEART AND ACCEPT HIS SALVATION PAID PRICE.

CONSIDER THIS; GLOBALLY 156, OOO PEOPLE DIE EVERY DAY GLOBALLY.

HOW MANY REFUSED THE PAID PRICE AND SALVATION GIFT JESUS OFFERED?

HOW MANY NOW SIT IN THE WAITING PRISON OF HELL BECAUSE THEY DELAYED, DISMISSED, REJECTED, AND SNEERED OVER THE OBSCENE TORTUOUS PRICE JESUS PAID TO SAVE THEM?

DO YOU KNOW THAT MAKES YOU UNIQUE?

DO YOU KNOW THAT MAKES YOUR STAND AND YOUR REPENTANCE AND YOUR ACCEPTANCE OF HIM THAT MUCH MORE PRICELESS?

DID YOU KNOW THAT MAKES THE HORRIFIC SUFFERING HE WENT THROUGH WORTH IT?

YOU KNOW, I HAVE LOVED THE LORD JESUS MOST OF MY LIFE.

JESUS CHRIST WAS A MEMBER OF OUR FAMILY.

HE WAS NOT JUST A ONCE A WEEK ROUTINE.

HE WAS/IS FAMILY!

BUT I NEVER REALLY COMPREHENDED THE DEPTH OF ALMIGHTY GOD'S LOVE FOR MANKIND WHO HATED HIM UNTIL I GAVE BIRTH TO MY FIRST CHILD, MY SON.

AS I FIRST HELD HIM IN MY ARMS AFTER A PAINFUL LABOR, I FELT SUCH AN AMAZINGLY FIERCE LOVE FOR HIM.

I WOULD AND STILL WOULD DIE TO PROTECT HIM.

BUTTTTTTTTTTTT....AS I HELD MY PRECIOUS FIRST BORN, I KNEW, TO THE DEPTHS OF MY SOUL THAT I WOULD NEVERRRRRRRRRRRR OFFER MY FIRST BORN SON AS A SACRIFICE FOR THIS FLAWED EVIL WORLD.

BUT ALMIGHTY GOD SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO LOVED US.  HE DID.

WE CAN NEVER COMPREHEND OR UNDERSTAND THATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT KIND OF LOVE.

SO QUIT TRYING.

JUST ACCEPT AND THANK ALMIGHTY GOD FOR HIS PRECIOUS SON JESUS EVERY DAY!

AND I CAN TELL YOU THIS, THE LORD GOD DOES NOT REMEMBER YOUR SINS.

BECAUSE HIS PRECIOUS SON JESUS WASHED THEM AWAY, WASHED THEM WHITER THAN SNOW WITH HIS PRECIOUS BLOOD.

DOUBTING THIS AND A TOOL OF SATAN.

WHEN THE PAST REARS ITS HEAD IN YOUR HEART, MIND AND LIFE AND YOU WILLINGLY AND KNOWINGLY LOOK BACK AND PONDER AND GRIEVE AND MOURN YOUR FORGIVEN PAST, YOU AND I ARE UNKNOWINGLY STEALING THE BLESSING AND THE GIFT AND THE PRICE PAID FOR US.

AND JERRY, JESUS CHRIST NEVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR EVER REMINDS HIS FAMILY, HIS FRIENDS, HIS TREASURES OF THEIR PAST FAILURES, SINS, AND WRONG TURNS.

THEY DO NOT MATTER TO HIM ANYMORE.

THEY ARE ERASED FOREVER IN HEAVEN AND ON EARTH.

THE ONLY ONES WHO REMEMBER AND FEED ON YOUR DARK PAST IS SATAN AND THE LOST WORLD.

EVERY TIME YOU ALLOW THE DARK THOUGHTS, DARK EMOTIONS, DARK PAST TO ENTERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR YOUR NEW LIFE IN CHRIST JESUS, YOU ARE FEEDING, NOURISHING, AND EMPOWERING SATAN AND HIS DEMONS.

SO FROM NOW ON, EVERY SINGLE TIME A DARK THOUGHT ENTERS YOUR WAKING OR SLEEPING HEART AND MIND....REBUKE IT.  REFUSE TO LOOK AT IT. REFUSE TO FOCUS ON IT.

STARVE SATAN TOO DEATH.

I KNOW YOU ARE IN A DIFFERENT TIME ZONE THAN I AM.  AND I KNEW WITH YOU DOING THE LORD'S WORK THAT YOU WOULD NOT BE ABLE TO ATTEND, BUT THE BIBLE STUDIES AND THE PRAYER MEETINGS ARE RECORDED AND SAVED ON CSN FOR THOSE WHO CAN NOT ATTEND LIVE EVENTS BUT WISH LATER TO LISTEN TO THEM AND BE NOURISHED BY JESUS WORD.

JESUS HAS HEARD THE PRAYERS OF REPENTANCE OF HIS PEOPLE WORLD WIDE. JESUS IS NOW ANSWERING OUR HEART CRIES. HE IS EXPOSING AND WILL BRING TO JUSTICE THE EVIL IN OUR GLOBAL GOVTS, RELIGIOUS SYSTEMS, COURTS, CORPORATIONS, ENTERTAINMENT, SPORTS, CITY/STATE LEADERSHIP, MEDIA, BIG TECH, BIG PHARMA WORLDWIDE. HE WILL BE HEALING OUR LAND. HE WILL RAISE UP GODLY AND NATION LOVING PEOPLE GLOBALLY TO RESTORE OUR LANDS. RETURN US TO HIM AND HIS WORD.

KEEP PRAYING. KEEP WATCHING.  JESUS IS WORKING.

LET NOT YOUR HEART BE TROUBLED JERRY!

SHINEEEEEEEEEE JESUS BRIGHT JERRY!

WELCOME JERRY!